This is the view... as I do exactly that, sit and catch my breath!
What a season it has been since I last sat to reflect on and record about life and it's happenings. The events and undertakings of the last 2 months have been laborius and demanding to say the least.
The Man turned 40, and as we prepared for and celebrated this momentus occassion with a guest list a mile long of family, friends and colleagues, a shift had transpired on the home front. The Man accepted a secondment to a new position which now entailed a whole lot more of everything!
Whilst muddling through and trying to find our feet in the midst of this change, Gorgeous turned 2 years old.
Her commitment to fulfilling the job description of a 2 year old is quite evident and to be admired. Demonstrating her will and assertiveness and her determination in mastering the perfect tantrum is a fine piece of work, and has been keeping us on our toes.
Before we could catch our breath all attention was on Special as he too celebrated a birthday, his 4th, and another step in the journey of becoming a 'Big Boy'.
As we came out the other side of all the "Happy Birthday To You's", I was perfecting the art of juggling another ball in our already busy life - that of a few hours part time work.
With Christmas festivities fast approaching and a feeling of over exposure to my current life, the idea of earning a few dollars and a break in the "monotony" seemed somewhat appealing.
So with all of this 'life' unfolding, I feel somewhat justified that I have in fact just been too preoccupied and life too hectic to be able to stop and to catch my breath. However the truth is, there have been opportunities to stop and moments to grab, but I confess.... I am always looking for the 'perfect' chance to do so. When the timing is suitable, the setting desirable and I am at my best.
Let's be honest, what is the likelihood of being able to tick all 3 of these boxes on any given day as a stay at home mum of 3. Instead I find myself yielding to the lure of the To Do List and perfecting the role of Task Master, so as to avoid the disappointment of an "imperfect" or interrupted breather.
But this morning the opportunity is here and the scene is set with perfect conditions... it is early morning, and quiet, the view of the Hokianga Harbour is still and serene, The Man is sleeping and the children are 2 hours away.
We have embarked on a 2 night getaway to a friend's bach to celebrate our anniversary. I sit with a coffee in hand, alone with a steady flow of reflections and feelings... it is bliss.
As I attempt to take in and savour this moment I disregard the gnawing fact that I know this moment too will pass, and the harsh reality will be there to bite me on my return.
But today I choose denial, that this point in time will continue. Today I choose ignorance, that I have learnt the art of bringing myself to a standstill, long enough just to catch my breath. And tomorrow I will accept the truth, and add to my To Do List... learn to stop and take a breath!
My findings and journey in attempting this will be interesting, challenging and imperfect for sure... certainly worthy of a post of it's own.
Have you mastered the art of stopping to catch your breath?
What and how do you do it? Please tell!
image by Beach Road Cottage
What and how do you do it? Please tell!
image by Beach Road Cottage
